Cards and Cookies

Yeah, we bake cookies and play card games on a Saturday night. So what? Our favorite thing to do lately is play Hand and Foot (Google it). The usual crew, Jacen, Kylie, Braxton, Colin and I initiated Alex into the group. Of course I got stuck with the newbie, and we didn't do so red hot. I'm confident though that by the next game night he'll be a champ! Of course there was story telling, football on t.v., and laughter involved. Kylie and I were unintentionally matching for the event red shirt and all. Her and I are morphing into the same person. I love my friends more than anything!

Pittalicious!

New favorite movie: Moneyball. Hayden and I met up in Salt City Friday evening and saw the flickster. Soda and popcorn included. I was reminded how big of a hunk Brad Pitt is (as if I had forgotten), while Hayden translated all of the baseball jargon for me. He's some sort of an expert on the subject. Not only that, but there was a Fabio reference in the movie. I laughed the whole night long, and came home with a few new smile lines. I need to stop going out with so many funny people. I'm getting wrinkles.

In case you didn't know, Jonah Hill is also in the movie. Well guess what! He directed my new favorite music video. Sara Bareilles is amazing to my ears, and she looks drop dead gorgeous. I'm so glad she finally made a music video to one of my favorite songs on her latest album.

Close Eyes, Clear Heart, Let Go

I'm an expert on heart ache.

I know how the tears flood the pillow.

I know the mood swings, angry to sad.

I know of the self inflicted torture, taking blame.

I know the hatred eating at the heart.

I know the love that still exists.

I know of the vanishing future, the empty feeling

I know the revenge that will never amount

I know the doubt that fills the mind with darkness

I know the desperate apologies, attempts to make amends

I know the deleted memories not fully removed

I know the heart broken playlist stuck on repeat

I know the fear of being replaced and forgotten

And then one day...

Comes healing

Comes forgiveness

Comes acceptance

Comes hope

Comes light

Comes closure

Comes knowledge

Comes another

Until then I'll smile in the presence of others, pray for strength to endure and wait for that day.

"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak. Sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go."

"When things are good, love is easy. When things are tough, love is true."

Until We Meet Again

I'll always remember the first day you and your sister knocked on my door. I had just moved into the neighborhood and didn't know a single soul. You were my very first friend. From that day on, we were inseparable: walking to the bus stop together and styling your hair during the ride to school, playing cops and robbers in your house while your dad was at work, making up dances to your 70's cd, the 5th grade talent show, your obsession with Pepsi and your catLucy, our pet frog (Kermit) that we found in my yard and shared every other day even though I never dared to touch him, watching re-runs of The Brady Bunch, and Spongebob, accidentally throwing your retainers away at lunch and having to dig through the trash cans at least once a month. You grew up to be such a beautiful, bright girl. I'm so lucky for the time I had to be in your presence. Your friendship meant the world to me, and I know we will meet again. I'll love you always, Brittany.